Final...

The Finality of putting a loved one six feet under is never easy, even though we are all well aware that that is our eventual destination... Some day, One Day... We all return to dust... And as my Auntie told me today as we lay our dear brother to rest; She said with each loss, in their lies a lesson foretold or Unforeseen...

And I must agree, for in under a month three people passed, unexpectedly gone too soon... But like I am beginning to learn, there is no such thing as leaving before your time... For God only allows you to leave this earth when your purpose is done!! and not a minute before... For the longest time I battled with my Fathers death, because he was meant to walk me down the aisle and meet my children... But all that has not happened and will not happen... It took me a while to learn that he actually did all that he could do for me, for as long as he could... But God never leaves a void... For I am now smiling in double portion...

So Anne Mburu, Nyawira Mwaura and Garvin Msalame Mwashumbe though we may not understand why you left so soon... It is evident that your purpose was fulfilled!! You each brought joy, love and warmth that will be terribly missed... Judging from the overwhelming response from your family and friends upon receiving the news of your passing... It is evident how many lives you all touched! and what better way to live by sharing yourself with others!! which you all did!! Bless you three!! Your legacies will surely live on!!

As I write this though I wonder if we brought joy, love and warmth to each of you with equal measure... Did you each feel our appreciation for each of you while you were still here with us!? Or is this over-whelming love overflowing only now!!?... Deep personal vetting required here... Because I surely feel like if we each gave 120% of ourselves to each of you and to everyone else we may have lost, then letting go becomes abit more bearable, because you can let go knowing you made the most of the time God granted here on earth, Until we meet again...

So my take home on this Month of May, the same Month that 3years ago also marks the loss of my Father is a very significant time for me! Because again I am reminded that tomorrow is indeed only borrowed, so living and really just existing in the moment is the only way to really live! So I am now more intentional in my relationships, With my children I am more present... And really present, listening to them, seeing them, feeling them and just simply being there with them! And the same goes with all my other close relationships... Presence is key!! If there is nothing else you can give! Give Of Yourself... That way when it's time to say goodbye, atleast you'll have made the most of this short and precious life! 

Love More, Judge Less, Forgive Always and Smile! Smile! Smile...

Bless!!

Bless this Child:-) en-GB

Frustrated Kenyan!!

As I sit here on my desk trying with all my might to stay awake! Because the flu meds are getting the better of me, but somehow the constant coughing is keeping me well alert... I am now forced to turn to the tv set next to me and there it is!! A scene from the Moi era, where a rightly constitutional protest is turned into a brigade of men in uniform, beating the life out of innocent Citizens, to the point where I can actually see an international Journalist, jumping to shield one of the unfortunate, as he was receiving a thorough beating! So this journalist did the instinctive and rather brave act of selflessness and took cover for the poor fella...

I won't even get to the Pigs who were present, am guessing to drive the point home! Though am not sure if animal rights were really observed there... Anyway that is conversation for another day, I digress...

These MPigs!! As we now refer them to are asking for 851,000KSH!! For their salary package minus allowances!! Excuse my French but WHAT THE F***!!! Salaries and Remuneration Commission have allocated 532,000KSH!! The excuse many of them bring up is that 'Oh! my people will ask me to help them with fees or medical bills or whatever!!' Fine!! then how about you do your job to better your community, so that they won't have to keep asking you for handouts!! This really just feels like a true mirror of our society;During the Campaigns you poured money to get votes, and people were more than willing to accept! now that your asking for money to continue feeding that mouth that will continually ask you 'Saidia Mweshimiwa!!' For goodness sake! CDF ni ya nini? And we wonder why these same MP's will ask for more money! Because the mwanaichi will expect more money from him now that he is in office!! So really that greed goes across the board and only till we allow the constitution that we all voted for, to fulfill it's mandate, then we're in trouble! So am glad to see Salaries and Remuneration Chair Sarah Serem stand her ground and  not allow for our so called Public Servants to bully her and her very competent team!!

I also get that this time we have new entrants from the Private Sector who were earning rather hefty salaries in their respective fields! But C'mon this is a whole new ball game... News Flash! Your role is now about Service Delivery! First! not a money making scheme! So am sorry, but we simply can't afford you!! Like teachers and doctors, the reality is that being a Public Servant needs to be a calling, so alot of sacrifice and selflessness must be observed for the greater good!! But this also has to start with us... The Society. Hence why seeing such brave steps taken by the Civil Society is encouraging, though still this hand-out business needs to stop! Nothing comes for free!! The only way to succeed is working your a** off!! I believe Mr.MP that as you were busy campaigning for these seats you were very clear on the pay package then! And maybe the reality now on the ground is that it is not enough! Well that really is for you to contend with and somehow make it work! We do it every freaking day! Make it work! Mweshimiwa!! Deliver on your many promises then just maybe when the devolved system begins to bear fruit there can be an appraisal if need be! Na ni hayo tu kwa sasa!!